I am so sorry I have been M.I.A. for a few days. So much going on. So many things on my mind. Some days I am super exhausted from just thinking about things. I will take to blogging about some of it before I go insane. First of all, I am back and forth about having another baby. I want her to have a sibling because I look at her playing alone and I feel sad. I always wanted 2 children but after my "near death" delivery I am a little leery and weary about it. Time has healed some of the fear but it is still there. If I do have another, I want to do it after she is one but soon because I am too old to be around here raising all of these kids!! LOL!
Secondly, I am in high stress season in my job. I am a perfectionist and when I cannot get things accomplished that they want me to, it wears on me. Being a pharmacist is awesome but being a pharmacy manager is becoming old. I am having a hard time deciding which direction to go. I love my schedule and the proximity to my home from the work location. These things are major deal breakers when you have a child. I did not care before.
Lastly, I want to do so much. I am horrible at time management but I am a great planner. I get things done but I rush. That's getting old too. I am trying to keep my commitments that I make but it is hard with so much going on.
I do not want to bore you with my stuff but I had to document. I will come back to this in a few months and hopefully there is some resolve!
On another note... I am super excited about BlogHER 2012!! Hope to meet some of my blogger buddies there!! The downside is I have not lost any weight so I guess I will wear moo-moos!!